MOXX

"…i enjoy being here…"—Mr. Duncan wrote in a postit pad after he had his eye exam

I can scream, shout whenever i want, laugh out loud, cry my heart out, "voice out" my opinions, sweet talk my baby, create sound using my vocals, share stories, blab about many things, whisper secrets, hear beautiful music, listen to chitchats..in short i can hear and talk..but why is it that sometimes i still cant find the best words to express how i feel to someone especially if i am hurting already..or why is that sometimes i still cant seem to understand what others are saying to me...unlike Mr Duncan…

Mr. Duncan is a sweet old man who is deaf and mute, he only communicates through writing, body and hand language. Never did one person who ive only been with for less than an hour made a great impact in me.

i dont know how he did it, how he does it or how he do it …but through his silence he can communicate a lot…he let me feel acknowledged and appreciated and seem to understand everything that im trying to convey and let him understand…

—ALERT—relate to own experiences—

mmm…what can silence possibly reveal or carry out…

to moxx silence…(from personal experiences)

•      can have a certain impact to a person if he or she is sensitive enough to what you are feeling or trying to say or make him or her understand..
•       doesnt mean i dont really care about something but i just prefer to not speak out or say someting back to not have a big fight about it…
•      can mean im very touched and just cannot find the right words to thank him or her.. silence of appreciation as i may term it..
•      can mean that im missing someone but i perfectly know that i cannot do anything about it since im miles away…
•      equals to "i am so overwhelmed" and i am out of words…
•    doesnt mean defeat, its just that sometimes i get so tired to hear makeup stories or messages bringing me down and messages written intentionally to confuse me or make me mad or make me feel stupid..
•    simply means i surrender and just choose to completely trust …

big thanks to Mr Duncan..he made me think..think hard..think deep again after sometime…

…im silent all this time…i hope you understand why…