MOXX

…thinking aloud status mode on…

well, life after college is really intimidating as i had expected..its not just living reality because i have been living reality all my life since i was born but it is being open to many realities… that as a  student i havent really considered to see as i am preoccupied with schoolwork and socializing and being an expertise of something… but but BUT there is a lot out there in our colleges and universities that i thought i didnt just consider seeing but actually am afraid to face not until now..

i am in a whole new world ( as may say) and now is as intimidating as ever..living away from the place i grew up in for 20 years and have not being capable of being independent all my life is one challenge for me…and this challenge becomes harder as i live everday..and it becomes even harder for me because i am facing this so-called challenge without my loved ones by my side ( my family, my boyfriend and my friends–my true friends(my stars))—truly presence makes a big difference..

but you know why i am still sane..because as i have stepped into this WHOLE NEW EVERYTHING..God also stepped with me..and made sure that WE would be together..inspite of me being a sinner, God has introduced himself to me again here..in this kaleidoscopic world i am now…and with Him, my brother and my second family here, the love of my family, my boyfriend and my stars..i know that this whole new everything will not be as new as i have once entered it..

…ho..hum..shift into: finish your laundry now moxx..hehe..

till my next post..  

in my work as an optometric assistant, i get to deal with a lot of people..and different ones too..i get to interact with elders ( some are really very sweet),  with kids ( the youngest ive handled so far was 4 yrs old), with teenagers, yuppies, middle ages like 40s..not only that.. they all have different nationalities, some even have interpreters with them that i felt that im in a miss universe pageant…hehe..well, the patients too get to deal with a girl who has multiple nationalties..hehe..(physically maybe but not by heart..)

awhile ago i was dealing with a new patient who is a filipina..of course i should speak to her in english still because maybe she grew up here and she prefers to speak in english or whatsoever..but as the interview moves on, i realized that she is having a hard time in speaking in english and organizing the words so i just told her that i am a Filipina and i started talking in tagalog already..she laughed and said that she thought i was chinese..i laughed too

…and i counted her in the club…hehe..the club of patients who have mistakenly thought that im a chinese or japanese girl..

yes, there are alot of times that i was thought to be chinese..or japanese..or whatever..but one thing still remains and could never be changed..i AM a FILIPINO..and my heart belongs back home..where my loved ones are..the PHILIPPINES…

i became the salad monster yesterday….—-> well maybe you already have a clue why…

the main dishes of my lunch and dinner are both salads..i had four plate full of salad all in all this day..mmm..a total yum yum for me…

"…try and try until you succeed.." —a famous motto of a lot of people…this motto has been claimed by many as their own and now i join them in claiming that too as one of my mottos too..

hours ago in the optometry ( where i am working)…

          my bosses were all talking about me..my aunt approached me and told me that i was the one that they are talking about..she told me that Dr. Meyer is impressed by my work..i was happy with what she said but what made me happier was when Dr. Meyer ( the one boss i am intimidated to ) approached me and said that he is very thankful that i am with their team….the feeling was unexplainable really because in my 3 weeks of working in the office, my attention was always called and they were all like telling me something about the things that i have done..well, its a good thing  i always take all in and try my best to apply everything that they are telling me because now it was made known to me that all my efforts in doing the best i can in my work were all appreciated and well accredited.

being an optometric assistant may not be in line with my course but i can say that being in this job now is very fulfilling as i get to interact with a lot of different kinds of people and a job that makes me grow because i always make everyday a learning experience for me..truly everyday i learn new things..from neutralizing glasses, from asking the interview questions, the medical abbreviation used in optometry etc..i grow because i learn..

        what is happening to me now is one definition of success..

            success for me is continuously being satisfied with something that one has done..truly i am continuously being satisfied with this..

this is a start…

later on i  know that by trying and trying…and trying…trying..and trying…i can be more successful…but in second thought..i can never be perfectly successful..it goes on and on..till I’m not giving up..

till my next post…

missing everybody..

love you my kixx!

yes yes yes..its my day off today from work, well didnt expect this because they had me working for the whole week last time….hmm….as im stuck here at home, well got to be productive still right..mmmm…lets see..i did my laundry today, cooked rice for my family here..mmm..and what else..thats it..thats productive right..hehe..well, to those who know me well, that will be productive..imagine.."moxx, the inglasera, dependent girl did laundry today and cooked rice..hmmm…its good to see her for real doing those things ei" hehe..well ive changed alright..but not in terms of how i deal with people and my personality but rather with regards to knowing responsibilities and being independent( a little, but not yet completely..)

i am still a baby..a baby that can be stubborn and can be lazy and can spend the whole day lying down and watching tv at times..but really..

i am still moxx..the moxx that everybody knows back home..the one who loves stars and mickey mouse and who cries everytime to surprises..

…mmm…sometimes i hate being home alone..it only makes me more homesick and damn…think about all my loved ones back home..

my family..my kada..my FE family….the pep squad..my baby prince..i miss you ( *hug*)..terribly..

till my next post..muah!